For Linda Cronin: A Tribute to Her Work
While it may be true that we stand on the shoulders of
giants, it is equally true that the giants are only giants because they stand
on the shoulders of those who never achieved their success. Far too often, those who were among the first
in a marginalized population to try to let their voice be heard do not have the
connections to an academic institution, the friends in the know, or the
literary sophistication that opens the doors to public acclaim. This was brought home to me sharply a few
days ago when I heard about the death of Linda Cronin, my poetry co-editor at Wordgathering.
Linda’s work first came to my attention in 2005 when I was involved
with the Inglis House Poetry Workshop, reading through the submissions on work
for our annual contest for disability related poetry. The poem she submitted described
a time in her youth when there was a popular theory that wearing copper could
help alleviate the pain she experienced from rheumatoid arthritis. Linda continued to submit her work to the
contests, and I got the chance to meet her in person when she showed up at the
workshop’s first (and as it turned out, only) Disability Poetry Conference,
coming down to Philadelphia from northern New Jersey.
One of the poems that she wrote at that time, published in
the Inglis House chapbook Something Close
to Beautiful is typical of
her work at the time,
drawing from her own life experiences and in expressing concern over the attitude of the medical establishment towards people with
disabilities.
MEDICAL MAZE
In my hospital bed, waiting for my dinner,
already an hour late, and sure to be inedible,
I hear a medical resident waking
the old woman in the next bed.
He struggles to talk to her,
realizing she doesn't speak English,
and he can only rely on his Spanish for Hospital Employees,
the required class for all personnel,
to help him. I smile, try not to laugh out loud,
as he confuses dinero
for dinner,
barely catching his mistake,
correcting himself swiftly
in English, waving his hands,
repeating No money, No money
as he searches for the right words,
needing to explain she can't eat tonight,
needs to have surgery.
I find the situation funny,
until I imagine the woman,
in pain and scared,
not understanding a word
this man in white says,
pointing at x-rays,
and I wish to comfort her.
Explain we're all
frightened and lost
in this medical maze of terminology,
antiseptic corridors filled with
diseases and procedures, always
no big deal to doctors and technicians.
But to us, everything,
the difference between
our lives yesterday and today,
and the terrifying discovery
of the uncertainty of tomorrow.
Linda went on to become part of Sharon Wachsler’s team in
getting Breath and Shadow, one of the
country’s first literary journals for disability, up and running as part of its
poetry editorial team. During that time period Linda continued to write her own
poems, which ultimately were collected in her chapbook Dream Bones, published by Puddinghouse Press .
In her book, Linda expressed those fears growing up that are recognizable by so many disabled
people of her generation. In her poem
“Shame” read:
The shadow I could not name
was the shame I felt each time my body
failed to do what I wanted.
The shame I faced years ago
when Brian called me a cripple
in the lunchroom.
was the shame I felt each time my body
failed to do what I wanted.
The shame I faced years ago
when Brian called me a cripple
in the lunchroom.
And in “Sunday School
Lesson’s” :
I hear the whispers, I must be doing
something wrong because God wouldn’t
punish me if I was good like they are.
They must wonder if I pray.
something wrong because God wouldn’t
punish me if I was good like they are.
They must wonder if I pray.
However, while she voiced those fears, she alsos came to
value her own body, and most often her poetry ended on a hopeful, even
Romantic, note. She shows this in one of
most affecting pieces: “Flash Fiction On: Beauty and the Beholder.”
I want to reassure him, to say its all right. I have learned to accept this body that betrayed me, that continues to betray me each time another part fails. I want to tell him not to worry there is more to life than being pretty, being desired. I know the thoughts of touching my deformed joints repels him, but that's all right because I have come to love who I am, with my curves and bends in unexpected places.
I want him to know my body is not my prison, my soul soars through life free as an águila finding more love and beauty in the faces of strangers and the eyes of loved ones than he'll every know.
In 2011, Linda joined the Wordgathering staff as one of its associate poetry editors. In the company of more widely published
colleagues, Sheila Black and Jill Khoury, who favored riskier work, she tended
to champion the more plain-spoken work that was accessible to the less academic
readers, while at the same time working to wean out poetry that perpetuated
stereotypes or were calculated to elicit pity.
One of the problems with the emergence of any literature
connected to a group whose work has been suppressed is that those who are among
the first to put their experience into writing are caught in a squeeze.
Disability poetry is no exception. In
putting themselves out there in ways that witness their own lives and breaking stereotypes in the
process, they risk censure from the very communities that one would have
thought would be most likely to embrace them. To those in the world of academic disabilities studies,
Linda’s work still appears too close to the medical model because in writing
about her own experiences, she did not give enough prominence to the socially constructed nature of disability. For those who thought of themselves as poets
first and foremost, Linda’s work was too traditional and lacked the innovation
and highly skilled manipulation of language that is in vogue. If this sounds accusatory, then I will point
out that I am complicit - exhibit A in this academic snobbishness. Having the
chance to include her work in Beauty is A
Verb, the anthology that recognized the best and most important work in
disability poetry, I did not.
Still, if the truth be told, Linda’s work is probably much
more likely to connect with the majority of people in this country who have a
disability and who have felt discriminated than many of those writers who reach
an acclaim that she never did. She spoke
the language they spoke and expressed their concerns an d feelings in a
language that did not require frequent trips to a thesaurus or a course on postmodernism. She worked for them. In a democracy, that is worth a lot. And she deserves our thanks.